The Day Had Come...
Friday morning, May 26, 2017 I woke up late. I was supposed to be in Memphis at 5:30 in the morning to start my makeup. Imagine my distress when I rolled out of bed 10 after 5. I messaged Sara Green, my photographer and my support system, Beth to explain that I was running late. Everyone but myself seemed unbothered by my tardiness. I cried all the way into Memphis convincing myself that this was a sign. I did not need to be doing this shoot and this whole thing was the worst idea in the world.
I sat down at my friend Jennifer's Kitchen table and Faith Knolton started my makeup. I hope the pictures tell you a story of strength, love, and compassion for beauty in its own truth, not society's version of truth.
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And just like that we were headed downtown. I wasn't ready but I was determined. Besides, If I cried anymore then my makeup would mess up.
A few girls from the house wrote me letters of encouragement to read when I was scared or felt hopeless. In reading these I found strength.
The time had come. I could feel the fear in my chest, my hands, my heart, my mind. I tried to smile.
This picture. This is my vulnerability exposed. The most powerful picture taken. This picture captures my truth. I can feel all those emotions flooding back.
And off we went.
This day I felt powerful yet I felt eyes looking at me. I felt a little cold on my head. Mostly, I felt beautiful. My past may have been painful and at times traumatizing. I may still need to work on me a lot more. But my message is simple. The reflection in the mirror isn't always the one we want staring back, but beauty is not found in a reflection. It's found in your heart. For every girl who doesn't feel adequate or pretty enough, I hope you see this and know you were made with perfection.
#YourAutoimmunityIsGorgeous
Until next time,
Shannon
Shannon,
ReplyDeleteYou are so beautiful, so special and such an amazing blessing. Thru your journey, you are inspiring so many people,me included. We all have flaws and things we wish we could change about ourselves. You are teaching me to have the courage and strength to be who God made us to be. I loved you before and love you even more now. Proud of you my ill sister!!!!
You look relieved and free! I hope those feelings are the ones that take root and grow!! So proud of and glad for the you that's blossoming!!
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